Saturday, November 22, 2008


The time, forgotten

There will be a time when the existence of man shall be questioned and held accountable for the horrors inflicted on several innocent souls, but until that day of reckoning comes, our conscience beckons, reminding us of the need for humanity and compassion.  

Today, with my 49th post on this blog, I am not going to relate to you a funny anecdote but go full circle to the beginnings of this blog, the reason the "why" arose.  Life relates to us several tales, some etch into our memories, others drive the adrenalin up, and eventually fizz away into nothingness.  A fizz is what bubbled into the intertwined deliberations - the random ramblings that evolved over the past two years and more.  But in public interest am not going to walk down memory lane and reminisce.  Instead, I'll celebrate this pre-golden jubilee post for myself, by giving it the post it deserved - something that has been etched in memory for more than 9 years and was renewed this month during my visit to Munich, and never had the potential of fading away.

Political correctness has not been my forte, so before I start, my apologies to anyone who might be offended in any way with what I talk about.  Dachau - one of the first concentration camps in Germany, was established near Munich, which Steffi - my friend whose place I crashed at, drove me down to, on a chilly autumn morning.  Whatever experts may say, I refuse to believe that global warming caused that day to be especially cold - it felt like winter had set in - the nose numb. Drooling. Everyone taking out their taschnetucher (paper napkin) and blowing their noses in.  The ears about to drop off, the lips parched - not for lack of moisture, but the moisture on them being frozen into icicles.  I dare not imagine what a tongue would have gone through had it been on a popsicle that day!  We could not make an early start since last night had been rather tiring and the beers did not help with the alarm either.  Surprisingly for 11:30, the fog is still very thick - a dense grey set in the outskirts, visibility low.  In the car it didn't cross either of our minds what that gloomy weather meant for us.  We simply drove on, reached, and made our way to the audio guides section. 

This has been my second visit to a concentration camp, the first one being Mauthausen, on the outskirts of Vienna.  I will not advertise.  I will not coax you into going there.  I won't elaborate on what I saw either.  However, what I will tell you is the chill that ran down my spine, when I saw the line of 24 barracks in continuation that seemed to disappear into the horizon with no end in sight.  I will tell you about the design that won an award - and how that death seemed less painful than what would have been inflicted.  The more we glorify or condemn something, the more renowned something becomes, the faster it loses impact.  Dachau was different.  No cafes, no restaurants.  No souvenir shop, or marketing gimmick.  The grey abode stood there, amidst civilisation - people going in to work everyday, letting it drift into history - unnoticed, uncelebrated.  

I won't elaborate on my conversations with Steffi either, for they were wonderful - and any attempt on my part to reiterate them to you would simply not do justice to the ideas we discussed, the perspectives we got.  By afternoon, the chill had grown into a windy storm, as the breeze grew wilder, edging us on to the next exhibit in line.  What was supposed to be a 2-3 hour trip took longer - we were engrossed - not in the horrors - but in something more abstract  - the feeling - the empathy was prominent - the sympathy lingering.  Exiting the museum, we entered the barracks - the bunk beds - reminds you of "Life is Beautiful" - the movie, but not so much the horrors - we could not help but think that in probably in another hour we would be home, sipping on hot cocoa or coffee, while not 60 years ago here lay men, awaiting - not death, but the morning horn for headcount, shivering, unaware what came with the next sunrise.  

If you expect from me an elaboration on what I saw, a condemnation of Hitler's tyranny, this is not the intent of this post.  It is just one elaboration - an attempt at it - to tell you that it isn't a Romantic's idea to experience pain and suffering when going to such a place, but a common man's compassion that brings him to realise the need for love amongst humans.  It might seem all too far fetched, preachy and exaggerated - more like a work of drama, but the presence, the gravel under your feet echoes into your head - without permission - of the untold horrors.   

Five o'clock in the evening approaches and we make our way as the last tourists to leave the premises - happy to get out of the depressing state the camp put us in, content to be able to get in the car, switch the heater on and warm ourselves, happy that in today's times we feel secure. But as Steffi sped on to the highway, I cleared the fog from the window with my jacket, looked into the distance as the tin sheets shattered in the strong wind but the trees lining the camp stood still - the silence echoing in history - "never again", disappearing round the curb to join the evening commuters into Munich.


Not a moment's peace

Reminiscing of an old Indian fable, a wise man - Birbal - from the court of ministers of the great Mughal emperor Akbar, was once asked by the ruler what was the most relaxing and satisfying human emotion? A very simple question, yet it sent the entire court in a tussle between gratitude, benevolence, and what not - everyone trying to show off their "humane" side.  Birbal, being his wise self chose to maintain silence and requested the emperor that he be allowed to demonstrate his answer.   The emperor aware of Birbal's wit willingly agreed, hoping to learn the answer the fun way.  

In the dead of night Birbal came banging to the emperor's chamber requesting his company on a journey across the river.  The emperor reluctantly agreed, sensing the urgency in Birbal's voice.  The river waters gushed calmly, the fog set in, the visibility was low, and there anchored along the shore afloat was a rowboat - but nobody to row it.  Unfamiliar with such inconvenience the emperor quizically looked at Birbal expecting an explanation, but the wise man just smiled and got onto the boat assuring the emperor he would not have to row.  Three quarters of an hour into the journey, the cold was taking its toll, Birbal rowed at a leisurely pace, and the emperor grew restless.  Eventually he gave in and pleaded with Birbal to row faster as he had to pee.  Birbal with his usual smile informed that they were in the middle and going either way would take at least another three quarters of an hour.  He suggested that the emperor satisfy his urge in the river itself.  The idea was outrageous to the emperor brought up with such etiquette and he categorically denied any such improper act.  Another quarter of an hour passed and the restlessness became unbearable, and the emperor became impatient, the wise man still smiling and rowing.  He eventually gave in and threw all his apprehensions out the boat (window :P) letting out a sigh of relief - with a voice in the background saying "sire, this is the most satisfying human emotion" - a hearty laugh followed and they both rowed back home. 

Why? Because its a good story but more so since I realised its importance not two days ago.  Leaving the gym, I calculated that if I hurried I could catch the minibus in time and not wait for the next one to leave in 15 minutes.  Had to pee but thought, a 5 minute ride against a 15 minute wait, I could hold on for some time.  So I ran to catch the minibus - made it just in time ! :) Couldn't get a seat so kept shifting my weight from one leg to the other, bobbing forwards and backwards just to keep the pressure from building.  Could have made a good club dance move any other day, but all that occupied my mind then was - "just 2 more minutes .. 119 seconds .. 118 .. 117 .. 115 .. 110 .." - yeah I was skipping seconds, because believe it or not, if you are waiting, and you KNOW you're gonne be free of the 'tension' in a few seconds, the pressure builds up even more.  So instead of the usual baritone of "Acarlar" to request the driver to halt, a squeak came out, and I hurried off the minibus, brisk walking back to my apartment, hands trembling and missing the keyhole twice. I finally got in.  

No no no - how can life be THAT easy ?! I open the door and the phone rings - "hello .. hello .. hellooooooooo" - nobody answers - why would someone bother someone already in a hurry - ack !! So I continue on walking like a penguin by this time, and before I could reach the shining white ceramic, the cellphone rings - on vibration mode - what was luck trying to do - kill me ?! I take the bloody thing out and its one of my friends calling about meeting up - so I take the call, and in  a stressed tone - talking more like a Robert de Niro or a Marlon Brando in the Godfather fix up a time and disconnect - hey don't judge me to be rude - I was under a lot of pressure - literally ! I reach the door - glowing, inviting, turn the handle - locked! I turn again - still locked - why oh why ?! "Am in here KG" comes a voice from inside - its one of my flatmates ! Oh bloody hell !! Fortunately we have two restrooms, so I hurry off to the other one - now that one has not been designed for guys pee'in - the lid keeps falling down - so got to adjust that first - 2 more minutes of misery - that taken care of - okay I will save you the details, thankfully for you, but lets just say, even the zipper played spoilt sport that day, and another 5 minutes later only could I go "oh dear heaven on earth" - and the sigh of relief !! :)

I know a lot of people would identify with this experience but would deny it all the same ! :) Never again am I gonna go for a 10 minute time saver and have 10 minutes of misery - the 15 minute wait it shall be ;)