Subconsciously screwed

Had a hearty meal last night with my floor mate .. had home-cooked chicken with vintage French wine .. and above all there was amongst us ma beloved .. ma love .. ma inspiration .. tee hee .. wondering who she is ? ;-) But of course who else apart from the 'beautiful bitch who scored on so many dimwits' :P Really anxious now ain't ya? Well ma sweetheart .. Philosophy .. who else?

People are under the false impression that philosophers are great thinkers and are able to look beyond the obvious. All philosophers do is that they actually look at the obvious while all others are busy elsewhere in their ignorant interpretations of life and its purpose. Philosophy is like ecstacy .. the more you get involved .. the lighter you feel - an addiction - that is what it is !! Am addicted to ma love but have seen worse cases .. everything for 'em becomes a question .. analysing everything .. dissecting the abstract human emotion and ending up with a torn and shredded scrap of what was once a beautiful blossoming concept related to the abstract !!

Damn I hate philosophising at times .. just makes me nauseous at the thought of having to think abt each and every thing !! For once would it not be worthwhile to jus' let be whateva is there ?! But as I said its an addiction and no patch is there for the kind .. c'mon am saying it here on da blog and accpeting but am sure that the habit won't vanish .. how more frustrating can it get than this ;-)

But nonetheless love ma darlin' and am happy with who I am and the way I have shaped out to become -- guess I jus' love being myself !! The worst thing you could eva do to yourself is to change for sth that was neva worth its while !! Don't jus' read ma posts but Ponder.