Blowin' in the wind
Went for a stroll in the evening to enjoy the gentle breeze - a welcome reprieve from the scorching heat :-) But little did I suspect that it'd pose a big Q on my life. Not getting my point na ? :P Don't worry, neither am I ... Okay let me be more obvious - how much is enough, when do we stop and rethink our life - how we live it. My priorities as an engineer had long been set - am no GEEK (and don't you dare laugh Nandu) - but still very square when it comes to academia. No wonder everyone associates us with a rigid head :-( Damn for once wouldn't it be a wonderful change to stop and let things be as they were instead of worrying of every minute detail, am tired of running for my whole life - feel like being free for some time - need a breather badly.
I know if I continue this way I'll end up like one of the nerds whose life's defined by those 9-6 working hours - and I don't want that - it was meant to be so much more and I know that. Still I can never get to grip with the idea of letting go of the run I've been a part of my entire life - its been an integral part of who I am - is it so easy to let go of something you grew up with? It's fine as long as you aren't aware of the things you miss, but it builds a turmoil inside you when you realise that all you really wanted got quashed in your pursue of more material goals. Can't I desire both? Is it too much of an ask?
Would it ever make sense to give up what your brain feeds on for something your heart aches for? Dunno the answer but am sure its somewhere out there - just blowin' in the wind - waiting for someone to guide me to it :-)
2 comments:
As far as your fear of being nerd is concerned..take it me, you will never be a nerd....I think what you need is to organise yourself.. by organising I mean that you need to make patch in those long gaps when you are not even thinking about work. Don't leave everything for last time..You are not a general student, you have extraordinary grasping power..The only thing you miss is motivation. Sometime you are not motivated enough to dedicate your some time to work..If you can make up for that thing..you will never need those last moment hectice schedule..
So dear try to orgnise yourself and try to be regular..
If you would be able to do that I am sure you will never have to think that you will become a nerd...
As far as your fear of being nerd is concerned..take it me, you will never be a nerd....I think what you need is to organise yourself.. by organising I mean that you need to make patch in those long gaps when you are not even thinking about work. Don't leave everything for last time..You are not a general student, you have extraordinary grasping power..The only thing you miss is motivation. Sometime you are not motivated enough to dedicate your some time to work..If you can make up for that thing..you will never need those last moment hectice schedule..
So dear try to orgnise yourself and try to be regular..
If you would be able to do that I am sure you will never have to think that you will become a nerd...
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